I'm cold. Its wet. And its incredibly dark for 11 am.
I've been moving around quite a lot in the past couple of months. I was living out of a suitcase for quite some time whilst I found a more permanent residence and as materialistic as this sounds, I missed my things. I missed waking up and being surrounded by all the junk i've collected over the years, all the silly little nik naks, all the stuff that makes me feel like I'm home. Its funny how easily you lose yourself when you don't have a place that's yours. But now that i've crammed all my necessities into one 2X2 "half bedroom" I feel like can finally focus on getting my life in order again. I have a lot of love for this bedroom though, the white walls, dark wood floors, high ceilings and a large window that brings in stunning natural light. I wouldn't want anything more. Its cosy and tidy and has enough room for me to hang my paintings and keep plants on the windowsill.
I did this shoot a while back in the summer, you can tell because I'm not translucent and my face is flicked with freckles. The location is my nan and pops house in the country and there were so many memories playing in their backyard. Its an odd feeling to come back and see just how small everything actually is. When you're a child everything just seems so incredibly big- the dinning table, the kitchen the backyard and all the hiding spots. There was so much wonder and mystery that surrounded my nan and pops house. But the older I got the more started to realise that the fern garden wasn't a jungle and large piece of oval fibreglass wasn't a giants bar of soap.
I've always said this, but I have never really wanted to grow up. I like my independence and I like that I can do what I like and go to bed when I feel like it. But the actual growing old part and having tremendous responsibility just doesn't interest me. It's like a really boring ride that starts off with so much potential but then steadily starts to slow down and all of a sudden your not having fun anymore. I'd like to get of now and find a better ride, please.